Happiness Is an Inside Job

It’s been a rough week. All the brouhaha about the British vote to leave the European Union, mass shootings seemingly every day, insanity in the presidential race in the U.S. all add up to me wanting to pull the covers over my head and just hibernate until 2020 or so.

However, I take heart in how all this is interpreted by author Charles Eisenstein in his wonderful book, The More Beautiful World Our Hearts Know is Possible. His take on all this is that we are nearing the end of the “story of separation” which we have built over the last several millennia. It is the “us against them” attitude, always being at war with something, having to win all the time because second place or worse is for losers.

Eisenstein predicts that we are now building what he calls “the story of interbeing, the age of reunion” where we recognize the unique gifts we all have to offer, and at some point in time we will move into this “gifting society” and live more in our hearts and in alignment with who we really are.

In between these two stories is rampant chaos. The old way does not die out quietly, and the new way is yet to take a strong hold. So, to me, it feels like I’m getting slammed back and forth, up and down, to and fro. The emotional toll is high.

Although my first inclination is to put my head in the sand, I instead open The Way of Mastery to Lesson Seven where Jeshua lovingly reminds me that:

“As long as there is a trace of energy within you in which you are striving to get from any perceived thing or object around you what you are sure you lack inside yourself, you cannot know the love of Self. And you cannot experience freedom. Happiness is an inside job.”

I’ve turned off the news. I’m going to take a shower, and then go for a walk and listen to the wind rustle the leaves of the trees. And I will remind myself to think of things that make me smile.

When Your Only Desire Is Love

This quote from Rumi, Persian poet and Sufi mystic who lived in the 13th century, caught my eye the other day in an email sent by a friend:

“Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.”

It echoed the sentiment from Lesson Six in The Way of Mastery where Jeshua says,

“Your work – if you wish to call it that – is not to seek and find love. It is merely to turn within to discover every obstacle that you have created to its presence, and to offer that obstacle to the great dissolver of dreams, the grace of the Holy Spirit.”

My first thought was how similar these quotes were. My second thought was, “For crying out loud! How long is it gonna take for us to open our eyes??? Eight hundred years between quotes and we’re still out in left field???”

These thoughts on love have been on my mind because of two young people I absolutely adore. They have been a couple for three years now. I had no small part in bringing them together, and I think overall that has been a good thing. But they are struggling right now, well past the “honeymoon” phase, wondering why the love they initially shared isn’t sustaining them.

My dilemma has been how to explain to them that you don’t “find” love in another person. You nurture it within yourself, and then are able to share that with a partner, your work, even the world. But it has taken me twice as many decades of living to discover this. I can’t expect that they could just acquire wisdom from me, like osmosis. I so wish I could grant them some solace, so that they could look upon each other with delight, rather than with desperate, unmet need.

Lesson Six is titled “Love Heals All Things.” One of Jeshua’s loving statements from that lesson seems to speak to their situation. Perhaps my youngsters will read this and understand. Or perhaps it will speak to someone else who is suffering, and who, perhaps, finds relief. Jeshua always says it best:

“You cannot move into holy relationship with anyone or anything until you give up all trace of need to possess it. When your only desire is Love, you will be willing to set anyone free, to support him or her in their own journey, no matter what it is or what it takes. Yet, you will never feel your Love waver.”

Peace to you, my sweet darlings. I pray for peace for us all.

Letting Desire Lead to the Next Adventure

I’ve been noticing more “miracles” lately. Maybe I’m just seeing them now that I am not preoccupied with trying to make a living.

I left my regular job at the end of April, trusting that the universe would provide. To paraphrase author Pam Grout, the universe is “loving, benevolent and has your back.” So far, so good. But I still have a strong desire to do something that I love to do, for income, for self-expression, and as a contribution to my concept of community.

Recently, I signed up for a two-week class that interested me – Introduction to Voice-Over. It’s taught by a local woman who has been doing this work for 10 years and is very successful. I signed up because it sounded like fun, and I’ve had some experience in front of a microphone and thoroughly enjoyed it. And what she is telling us is that we, too, can make a living doing it. What?! Did I just find my new profession?

Jeshua tells us in Lesson Five, “The Keys to the Kingdom,” that the four essential keys are Desire, Intention, Allowance and Surrender. There is a prayer in this lesson which he offers us on page 67. The week before I started this class I was saying this prayer several times a day. I am humbled and grateful that the response to my prayer is to find my next adventure. The prayer is this:

“Source, Creator, God, Goddess, Al That Is, Abba –
I am ready to be what you created me to be.
I choose to remember that I am effect and not cause.
Thy will be done, knowing that your will is my full happiness.
Reveal then, that path through which that happiness can be known.
For my way has never worked, but your way always does.”

I find that these “miracles” are supporting the belief that I will be shown, so easily and gracefully, “that path through which that happiness can be known.”

Getting Naked with My Desires (no, not THAT way!)

I’m beginning to see the concept of “desire,” (as in what you truly want rather than being associated with anything sexual), bubbling up to the surface in other people’s writings. I’d like to share this blog post from New York Times best-selling author, Pam Grout, in one of her recent posts. If you haven’t read any of her books, I certainly recommend “E²” and “E³,” as well as her new book which is coming out this summer, “Thank and Grow Rich.” Here is Pam’s take on desire. It’s called “Why It’s Time to Get Naked with Your Desires”

   Today, I want to talk about innocence and vulnerability and one of the sidewalk cracks we stumble over when claiming the largesse of the universe.
   I call it a sidewalk crack because it’s very subtle. There’s an underlying belief that we shouldn’t admit we want riches, joyous relationships, rewarding work. What if people think we’re selfish? What if we piss God off?
   So we’re in conflict. We have desires, but we don’t want to admit them. We pinch them off. We hide them under the bed. Desire, after all, is a blot on the spiritual path. Isn’t it?
   But what if desire IS the spiritual path, what if it’s the animating force that propels us forward, that effects beautiful transformation on the planet?
What if desire is actually God in action? And by suppressing our desires, we’re actually crippling God.
   So I’d like to suggest that we surrender to the creative force that wells within us and begin to view our desires as wholly innocent, wholly pure, wholly….holy.
   So yes, it might be intimidating to admit you desire material comfort and creative expression and unending love. But if we don’t all come out of the closet about our desires, we risk thwarting the full potential of the universe, of God.
   I’m ready to undress. How about you?

Pam makes a really good point (several, actually), but I’m looking at the one that’s about the underlying belief that we basically can’t have what we want. It seems “sinful” to even ask for those things. How do I even find out what my heart’s desires are, anyway?

Jeshau offers an exercise in Lesson Four of “The Way of Mastery” that I’m going to start today. He says to sit quietly with pen and paper in hand, close your eyes and ask yourself, “What do I truly desire?” Write down whatever comes to mind, without judgment. Do this each day for a week, and then go back and look at what keeps coming to the surface. I’ll let you know what I find.

In the meantime, if you want to read uplifting, funny and inspiring stuff, please sign up to get Pam’s blog. You can do that at: https://pamgrout.com/.

Now go get naked with what you truly desire.

Everything Comes from Desire

This blog is about desire because Jeshua notes that everything comes from desire. “Desire is creation” he states in Lesson Four, “Following the Thread of Desire.” And in Lesson Five, “The Keys to the Kingdom,” Jeshua notes that the first key is desire.

I’m at this place in my life due to my desire (written as a vow) to “live my life free to follow my passions of love, learning, connection, compassion and spiritual growth.” I have to credit the clarity of that statement to Skip Hudson and Evelyn Anglim, who co-taught “Mindful Self-Compassion” this last winter. That course didn’t necessarily change my life, but it helped me get very clear about what is truly important to me. When those things came into focus, I was able to let go of my “real” job and fall, arms outstretched, backward into my future, like I’m making a big snow angel in the cosmos.

Mindful Self-Compassion is based on the work of Dr. Kirstin Neff. Here is her TEDtalk on what it is. https://www.google.com/webhp?sourceid=chrome-instant&ion=1&espv=2&ie=UTF-8#q=kristin%20neff%20tedx

Skip Hudson is a certified MSC instructor, and we are so very lucky to have him in our midst in the western Colorado. He has another course starting in June. I strongly recommend taking it. Here is Skip’s contact info:

skip@skiphudson.com, 970-314-4888, www.skiphudson.com

In order for us to move forward spiritually, we need to see ourselves as Jeshua sees us, as loved, loving and lovable. His opening two paragraphs from Lesson Three are perhaps some of the most beautiful sentiments in the written language.

“If I search the languages of your world, I cannot find the words that can convey the Love I feel for you. I cannot find the words that can convey unto you the Love that God has for all of us….Therefore, in truth, I look upon you constantly, and marvel at the radiance of my Father’s Love. It is through you that I come to discover all that God is.”

So for today, I would suggest that we take a good long look at loving ourselves. I don’t believe we have enough self-appreciation in our society today, so it’s up to us to cultivate it. Not narcissistically, but in the light that we were made with the Love of the Creator. We are each a facet of the diamond that is God. Let us go forth and shine with our own particular hue and brilliance.