I’ve been in a prolonged “funk” over events from the last year that left me feeling hopeless and uninspired. This included an accident with my car on Christmas night that has since left me without transportation.
I was journaling about this on Monday, but fortunately was rescued by two wonderful friends who came to town to do “the big shopping.” We piled into their vehicle and went directly to lunch. We then zoomed around to different shops and stores to get everything done. I felt better after spending time in their loving presence, but was still more on the morose side than cheery.
Yesterday, a very talented healer gifted me two hours of her time and expertise, after which I felt rejuvenated. Following that, we went to lunch, and shared stories of horses and travel. We laughed a good deal. One phrase she shared with me made me laugh but also made me think. “Surrender yourself daily to God, and then go forth and sin bravely.”
I woke up this morning with a James Taylor song running through my brain. The lyrics are something like this: “You are my only one. You are my only one. Don’t be leavin’ me now. Just believe in me now. You are my only one.” I considered it a message from Jeshua, a booster of faith – sorely needed and readily supplied.
So I turned to The Way of Mastery this morning, in anticipation of our monthly gathering this coming Sunday. Lesson 8 is “Dropping Pebbles into the Pool of Awareness.” I read the first three pages, and had to restrain myself from highlighting nearly every line.
Jeshua’s lessons are sometimes (well, most of the time for me) like eating a really rich meal. I can only take small bites, and I have to chew on them for a very long time. So I turned to Anita Moorjani’s book, What If This Is Heaven? and continued my spiritual meal there. I was already in the middle of her chapter, “Myth: Spiritual People Don’t Have Egos” and found great comfort in her perspective. I would like to share with you what I consider to be a very powerful paragraph.
“I notice that when I remember who I truly am – that I am divinity expressing through this body, through this personality, this ego, this culture, this life – the people around me change and react to what I am feeling within myself…My circumstances change, and my reactions to situations change. I believe that each and every one of us is powerful beyond belief, and none of us is deprived of this power. It’s only our beliefs and our conditioning that blind us to the numinous, or universal force within…”
Dear Ones – my New Year’s wish for you is this: find strength through family, friends and love, wherever and whenever those things appear on your radar. Every encounter with another, or an idea in a book, is an opportunity for true spiritual growth. Share freely these ideas and this love. You never know how much a positive influence you can have. Just trust that you will. Happy New Year.